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From the book, Yearning for the Living God, Reflections from the Life of F. Enzio Busche, copyright 2004. pp 40-41.
Because of the great respect and admiration I had for my father, one of the most difficult aspects of my decision to be baptized was, of course, the question of how he would react towards my baptism. I had a testimony strong enough to proceed with being baptized without asking for his permission, but I wanted to have his understanding even when I could not ask for his blessing. Having this desire in my heart, I went to him. Perhaps it was a couple of days before my baptism when I told him I had come to an understanding and was planning to be baptized. My father had already observed some of my interest in the Church as he witnessed my search for the truth in my early childhood and youth. He had also witnessed, very closely, the experience of my diseases and healing, which will be discussed later in this book. He had met some of the missionaries and was touched, in some dimension, by their honesty and sacrifice. He liked the fact that I was choosing their company; but I still had no idea how he would react when confronted with my decision to become a baptized member in the restored Church of Jesus Christ.
My father’s attitude was very serious and sincere when I told him. He said, “Before I say anything, let me sleep on it and I will talk to you tomorrow.” He came into my office the next day and said, “I have something that I want to tell you. I have three questions for you.” First he asked me, “Have you really investigated this?”
I answered, “Yes.”
Second, he questioned, “Have you really taken enough time? Did you look into all corners and read everything you could find, even the literature of its critics, or has someone pressured you?”
I replied, “No there has been no pressure. I have done everything I could to investigate and I have read also the ‘anti’ literature.”
He continued, “Then, here is my third question: Are you really convinced that this is true?”
Without hesitation, I answered, “Yes.”
He said, “Well, then you have no choice. You have to do it. We have to follow our convictions in our lives. Otherwise, we will not be able to stand. Even when it is not popular, and even when people sometimes cannot understand us, it is necessary to stand by our convictions. Otherwise, we are unable to stand.”
I was completely overwhelmed by my father’s final statement. It was so unique. I know of so many people who made compromises for all kinds of reasons, but here was my father who was concerned that I might have been brainwashed or coerced in some way. When it came to the final analysis, however, he respected my decision and was willing to support me. No matter how much I strive, I feel that I will never be able to equal him in his relentless pursuit of righteousness and of standing by principles of value.
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